And Here. We. Go. Again!

A lot of things have happened in the past week that got me to this point.

That was hoaky. Everything that happens gets you to the next point, right?

What I’m saying is that this is a very special moment in history. I have a weight-loss cycle. It’s something I could set my clock by. And I’ve broken this cycle for the first time EVER. So let’s just rehash what has been happening in my life to get me here.

Normally, I get all gung-ho about losing weight. I change my eating habits and I lose weight and all is great. And then something happens in my life that causes me to break my stride and I fall off the wagon and I muddle around in the mud until I’ve gained everything back. I lose all desire to better myself. I downright wallow in how horrible I am for having come so far and then failing again.

So…that’s where I’ve been. Wallowing in the mud.

But a few things have happened that have pulled me out of that gunk and placed me squarely back on solid ground. Continue reading “And Here. We. Go. Again!”

Hey! I found my motivation again – on Pinterest!

As everyone following this blog has figured out by now, I have really been struggling for the past month or so. What with illness and anxiety and life in general getting in the way of things, I have noticed that my dedication to losing weight has wavered. I have really been trying so hard to keep holding on. I refused to let go of the lifeline. I was determined not to give up. I knew that if I just held on and did little things in the right direction, I would find that wave again and be able to ride it. I knew it would happen. I kept the faith.

Today, I feel renewed, and I am totally going to run with it. Maybe this is the wave I’ve been waiting for. I am on my surfboard and ready to go!

There is something about autumn that seems to rejuvenate me in ways that other seasons do not. I feel cleansed and happy. I get to wear my scarves again, and my cardigans. I can throw on a jacket and life somehow just feels better.

It also helps that I am madly in love with autumnal vegetables. I have already baked a few acorn squashes and plan to expand on that. I want to experiment with veggies I haven’t yet tried. I want to learn new ways to cook old favorites. And I WILL be making a squash soup in the near future.

If you’re not already following me on Pinterest, now would be the time to start. And if you have a favorite fall recipe, please share! I’ll be doing some cooking in the near future. YAY MOTIVATION!

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Holy Crap, I’m Self-Sabotaging!

The last three weeks have been a blur. Life has been beating me down, and I’ve been giving in to it. Today, I was smacked with the realization that I am subconsciously self-sabotaging! 

How dare you, self!

Seriously! I have worked so hard to lose the 30-some pounds that I have lost. Why the fuck would I throw that away because life is a struggle?

Did it make me feel good when I over-ate last night? No! I went to bed feeling miserable.

Did I feel some sort of victory when I opened that bag of mixed nuts and ate it without figuring out what a portion size was? No! 

Was that little bag of peanut M&M’s worth the questioning looks from co-workers who know I’m on Weight Watchers, but are afraid to call me out on my mistakes? No!

Do you know what is worth it? 

  • When someone I haven’t seen in a while tells me my pants are way too big on me and I need to think about getting new ones.
  • When my fall jacket zips OVER my hips!
  • Every single fucking time I zip up my tall boots.
  • Not having to douse myself in moisturizer because my skin isn’t parched from dehydration.
  • Having little-to-no problems with lactose-based products.
  • Not having heartburn daily anymore.
  • Putting on my matte red lipstick and getting noticed instead of hiding from the world.
  • Knowing that I could eat whatever that person just asked if I wanted, but deciding that it’s just not worth the points it would use up.
  • Not having my knee pop out of socket anymore.
  • Rethinking my winter wardrobe because all of the shirts are too baggy.
  • Craving water instead of soda.
  • Searching Pinterest for new, healthy recipes to try.
  • Blogging! For fuck’s sake, I just need to keep blogging. I have shit to work through, and holding that inside my head isn’t going to make it go away.

Bedtime is now. Tomorrow is a new day. And I’m ready to tackle it.

Wednesday Weigh-In – SECOND BEAD!

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Huzzah! I have reached second-bead status! For those who don’t know, I made myself a weight-loss bracelet. Because I have (had!) 130 pounds to lose and that made my skin go icy just thinking about it. So I decided to break it down into more bite-sized pieces (pun SO intended). Each time I lose 10 pounds, I get another bead on my bracelet. And each time I get a bead, I go to the store to buy it all special-like. I now have 2 beads:

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Lose 10 On Us – Weight Watchers Promotion

I need to take a moment and vent a bit of frustration. For the past month, I have been trying to pay my Weight Watchers bill. I first attached a credit card to it, and it kept telling me it wasn’t working. Then I attached my account to PayPal, but it again was telling me it wasn’t working. I would get “pending” transactions that never went through, and every time I used the WW website or app, I got the pop-up that says, “Your Billing Information May Be Out of Date”. BAH!

I finally realized the problem. My PayPal account balance was $19.65. I have a credit card attached so it should hypothetically take the remainder needed from the card. Apparently, that card is the devil in plastic. I transferred $1 into my account and BAM, the transaction worked. That was a whole lot of crap over $1.

However, now that my account is current, I was finally able to submit my paperwork to show that I’ve lost enough weight to get two months free from WW!

emailSo that’s cool! Tomorrow is weigh-in. Tonight, I’m buying my next bead. Wish me luck.

I Haven’t Forgotten About You, Blog!

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I have been so busy, I’ve put off blogging! And I don’t like it! I even missed a two Weigh-In Wednesday posts, but I didn’t miss my actual weigh-in. The first one, I gained a few. The second one (two days ago), I lost those and a few more. I figured out that I actually wasn’t eating enough. Yes, you read that right. The week that I gained, I had a few days where I still had 15+ points left over. The next week, I made sure to get them all taken care of. Plus, that second week I got hit by the most horrible summer cold I’ve had in years. I was down for three days, unable to do more than shove Kleenex up my nose, cower on the couch, and binge-watch “Supernatural”. I’m feeling better, thank goodness, and I’m ready to keep moving forward!

I am also now less than 2 pounds away from getting my next Weight Loss Bracelet bead! And I don’t have one yet! I need to take care of that.

There are a lot of things going on right now. Work is crazy. My life is nuts. Changes could be on the horizon.

And I’m out of grits.

Another thing to add to the to-do list.

I’ll hopefully write more this weekend. I’m planning to set up a posting schedule. Mondays will be to cover my favorite recipe/food item that I’ve tried in the past week. Wednesdays will be for weigh-in and a synopsis of how my week went. Fridays will be for things I’m looking forward to when I lose weight. Since it’s Friday, I’ll leave you with this. I want to wear this outfit. This is the look I want. Girly, flouncy and feminine, but with combat boots.

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I have more motivational things and recipes pinned on my Pinterest page.  You can find that here:

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Weigh-in Wednesday…Drumroll Please!

11655178_10153515237843203_673348192_nDo you SEE that?!? That’s a BEAD! On my weight-loss bracelet! My first of thirteen!

When I started my weight loss journey, just one month ago, I saw the number that represented the difference between what I weigh now and what I want to weigh. It was a larger number than I could swallow. So I decided that I would break it up into 10 pound chunks. 13 is a way more attainable number than 130, right?

I bought myself a nifty black leather bracelet and decided that every ten pounds gone would earn me a bead on my bracelet, so I could SEE right there on my wrist that I’m doing this. It’s doable. Keep going.

As of this morning, I have lost 11.6 pounds in my first month. And I am damn proud of myself.

Vacation Confessional

foodI just got back from a week-long vacation, and it’s been FOREVER since I’ve had a vacation. We left Iowa last Monday night and drove up to Detroit to spend a few hours with friends, then we drove on up to the Niagara Falls region on Ontario, Canada. We spent three days there, visiting my oldest son and other family and friends. Then we came on back through Indiana, where we spent the night with even MORE friends!

There were a variety of reasons why I didn’t track my food while I was gone, but they aren’t worth rehashing. I did go into the whole process with the intention of being mindful of what I was eating, eating slowly, and stopping when I was full. I think I did a pretty good job, except for the one night I went a bit bonkers and drank two bottles of wine…but we won’t discuss that 😉

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Motivation Friday – Tall Boots

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Let’s all just take a moment to acknowledge the beauty that is this boot.

I have always loved boots. I’m that odd girl who wears long, flow-y, hippy skirts with black combat boots. I have always been that girl, and I likely always will be.

I’m also the girl who YEARNS to wear tall boots with short skirts. I want to slip my foot into this boot and zip it up all the way to the top. And I don’t want to buy a “wide calf” boot. I don’t want my leg to look like a leather ice cream cone. I want it to be a straight line right up my leg with only a bit of knee showing between the top of the boot and the bottom of my skirt. I want so desperately to be THAT girl.

For that reason, I will keep on plan. I will stay focused on the long-range goal.

And on the day I am able to put on these boots and zip them all the way up, you will know. Because there will be way too much happiness for my body to contain.