Weigh-In Wednesday – Facing the Truth

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Fact: I haven’t posted a weigh-in since two weeks ago, but I DID weigh in.

Fact: It hasn’t been pretty for the past two weeks.

Fact: Having written out those goals the other day REALLY helped.

Fact: I am so greatly and outrageously and immensely looking forward to a random mid-week day off tomorrow!

I’m going to get the stupid weigh-in over with. Because next week, it won’t matter.

Began 5.30.15
Start weight: 305
Goal weight: 175

Two weeks ago: 271.4
This week: 275.4
Difference: +4 lbs.
Total loss: -29.6 lbs.
Amount to goal: 100.4 lbs.

So basically, my whole last month was a wash. I lost 2 pounds, lost two pounds, gained two pounds and gained two pounds. That’s frustrating.

But I really REALLY need to understand that I did not get into this position overnight, and it’s not going to get fixed overnight. I did not learn these bad habits, and my anxiety disorder didn’t manifest overnight. My stress levels didn’t just go from zero to 5 million overnight.

In fact, I’m 40 years old, and I think the last time I was even remotely near a normal weight was when I was a freshman in high school. I weighed 180 pounds. It was about that time my mother put me on the Weight Watchers plan the first time. I don’t remember why it didn’t work. I do remember going to the meetings and feeling so amazing. I remember being approached by the team leader and learning that they would love me to be a team leader when I reached my goal weight. I do not remember this time of my life lasting very long. I cannot recall counting a single point. I don’t know why I stopped the plan, or why it didn’t work for me. I can imagine that what happened was that I started feeling good about myself, and my mother likely didn’t like that idea. There was probably some money emergency that came up that kept me from going. The excuses could have been anything. I wish I knew why I stopped going.

The next time I used Weight Watchers was on my own in 2000. I had a website somewhere that listed the points values for things, and I kept track of it all myself. I wound up getting down to 260 pounds by 2003. Then I met my now-husband and gained weight again. Then I got back on Weight Watchers in 2009 and I was losing quite a bit of weight. That was also the year my mother and I stopped speaking, and by the time I got pregnant with my daughter in 2010, I was back off the plan and the weight crept back up.

I would call myself a yo-yo dieter, but I never really get down low enough in weight to be the low yo part. I just go down a bit and then right back up.

The cycle is now broken. I refuse to give up.

Every day that I stay on plan is another day closer to when I will be at a healthy weight. I WILL know what that feels like. It WILL happen.

God, I want it to happen.

So…moving forward. That’s what I do.

Today’s lunch was rather simple because I had the “nothing fried” rule to follow. So I wound up eating a huge salad and some fresh fruit. It was 7 points for the meal.

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I didn’t intend to only consume 7 points worth of food. There really wasn’t anything else to eat down there. What you see: lettuce, ranch, radishes, pepperoncini, red peppers and chicken. It was delicious, but I wound up having to eat a Clif bar this afternoon because I was rearranging clothes on the sales floor and started getting light headed.

I plan to have a yummy dinner, and tomorrow I intend to take myself out for breakfast.

It’s about time to head home and make some food. I hope your Wednesday is going well.

30 Day Challenge: Day Three – Barely

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I just completed day three of my 30 Day Ab & Arm Challenge (details can be found on my As Pounds Go Bye Pinterest Board), and tonight, it kind of kicked my ass. I could now feel the muscles that were being worked and could tell that they’ve been used recently. It felt good to get through it. Especially good because my day pretty much sucked.

On my drive home, my car died. Of course, I had just gone to the grocery store and it was around 90 degrees outside. I sat there for about 30 minutes until my husband could come rescue me. It had overheated, and it was getting late, and I still had to make dinner, so we decided to just come back and get it later. Ugh.

I did manage to make an INCREDIBLE dinner. I found inspiration on Pinterest (Pinsperation?) on how to change up my tacos. I made regular old tacos for the family, but for me, I used shredded chicken with black beans and diced tomatoes with green chiles. And then I used lettuce leaves instead of taco shells. These babies were DELICIOUS and only 4 Weight Watchers points each. I had enough points left to have some tortilla chips, too, and I took a bite with each bite of my taco and it tasted a lot like a taco salad. YUM!

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After dinner, things went downhill again. While driving out to get my car, my husband’s car’s “Check Engine” light came on and the speedometer stopped working. And it was dark.

Then, the cherry on top turned out to be my knee once again popping out of the socket when I got out of the car.

So YAY! Today is now over. I have completed day three of my challenge and I can now go to bed and restart tomorrow.

Because tomorrow is Motivation Friday, and I have one heckuva blog planned!

Goodnight, my friends. TGTF (Thank Goodness Tomorrow is Friday!)

Recipe Monday – Delish Casserole Edition!

My family LOVES tamales. In fact, it’s ridiculous how much my 7 year old son loves tamales. So when I saw that I had a bunch of shredded chicken that needed to get used up, I knew this recipe would be a hit. And it was!

Chicken Tamale Casserole

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This dish was DELICIOUS, and after putting the recipe into my handy Weight Watchers app, it turned out to be 10 points per serving. I didn’t see anywhere in the recipe where it said how many servings it made, but I figured it to be about 8. It could have easily been made in a smaller casserole dish and made thicker, but the servings would have been more points, and I really just liked that it wasn’t super thick and bready. Lots of chicken. Lots of flavor. And I’m going to eat leftovers tonight!

Also, I seriously need to get my hands on more of these things pictured below. I bought a small bag at the tea shoppe the other night to try them and WOW I am hooked!

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Veggie chips! I want more! The whole bag was 1 point. Must! Have! More!

Oh, and hey…Follow me on Pinterest to see all of the recipes I’ve made or want to try. I’ve also started collecting potential workouts to incorporate into my regime.

Weigh-In Wednesday – Let’s Regroup, Shall We?

I wanted to skip today. I wanted to just stay in bed and avoid the scale and the world and hide under my blanket until Thursday morning, because Wednesday is weigh-in day, and I knew it wasn’t going to be pretty.

Here’s the thing. I have an anxiety disorder. I know that people throw that phrase around a lot these days, but I actually have one. I get debilitating anxiety attacks that turn my arms into icicles and my legs into rigid sticks. I get overwhelmed by the strangest things, and I have a really hard time voicing when I struggle with my anxiety. I tend to keep it down deep inside until something sends me over the edge, and then I have an anxiety meltdown.

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Motivation Friday – ALL THE THINGS IN ONE POST!

I am getting closer and closer to the busiest three weeks of my entire year at work. In the chaos and stress, I hold tight to Weight Watchers, knowing that no matter what, I can control what I put in my face. It’s actually quite comforting. That and the Zoloft works wonders!

I made an amazing meal this week that I have to share. It’s going to be like food porn, so beware. Spinach and cream cheese stuffed chicken breasts with a bit of Panko and Parmesan on top served with spinach couscous and roasted Brussells sprouts.  It was so good that I’m going to show you the whole meal, and then cover each part on its own:

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