I’ve had the past two weeks off from work. I go back tomorrow and, frankly, I’m dreading it. I’ve learned a lot about myself in the past two weeks, and I could use another two weeks at home.
Two things that haven’t been the greatest during my break have been my eating habits and the fact that I got whalloped with a horrible cold. I’m still coughing and blowing my nose, but am now feeling tons better than I was. Because I was sick, I didn’t accomplish even a fraction of the house tasks I wanted to do, but I guess they’ll keep.
My eating has been horrible. Because of the holiday, we were pitifully broke for the majority of my break, so I really ate what was available. I miss fresh vegetables and fish and chicken. I will get back to that. I promise. And I’ll start logging my food again. I will not give up!
What I did realize was that I didn’t have a single anxiety attack during my whole time away from work. My stress levels were completely manageable, when while flat broke and sick. Even with the kids here with me 24/7, I didn’t get that niggling feeling of being overwhelmed and that the world might just crash around me. Tonight, I feel the edges of it creeping back because I’m going to work again tomorrow.
I realize that says volumes about what my resolution for the new year should be, but I’m going to leave it unsaid. I am still processing my epiphany.
In my time of pennilessness, I did realize that I am most definitely a kitchen witch. I found that the time I’ve spent watching Chopped and my creativity really sparked something in the kitchen. When I looked at what I had in the fridge and the pantry and decided to make the best meal I could, I really had fun and came up with some great dishes. I made Hamburger Helper (that shit is hideously salty!) with a round steak I had in the freezer. I made the best breakfast quiche of my LIFE with leftover potatoes au gratin and bacon. See?
You just smash the potatoes against the sides of the bowl and bake it for about ten minutes, then add in the eggs and bacon, then bake for another twenty minutes. It was heavenly.
I really enjoyed myself! However, like I said, I really missed fresh vegetables. I look forward to stopping at the grocery store tomorrow and stocking up.
It’s a new year. It’s not a new beginning, though. It’s more of a recharge and a time to make sure you’re still doing the things you need to in order to stay on the path you’ve been trudging along on. At least for me it is.
I’m a complete hermit. I liked not having to go out in the cold weather. I liked just pulling my hair back in a ponytail and wearing the same sweatpants for the third day in a row. I enjoyed not caking on make-up every morning. In fact, I started using lotion on my face every night and every morning, and it feels so much better.
Speaking of morning, I have to hopefully fall asleep soon because 6am is wayyyyy earlier than the 9am I’ve become accustomed to. At least I know we’ll have coffee ready when I get to work…